A Flaw in the Plan

Renewed Constitution

I am not scared any longer to think that this moment will pass.
For, I have come to see in the most basic sense that nature's laws hold
--all things will eventually cease to be when disorder has had its last say.
Even though we fancy these to be moments of order,
how often do we reflect upon how stumble from one situation to the next?
The fortunate are those who can step in any direction they please
for these lucky souls are truly masters of their own lives.
With more power to correct any mistake than every lesser man,
with more heart to feel the boundless joys and endless sorrows,
with more insight and understanding, watching the universe like a wristwatch.
I have longed to move beyond the tiny gears and leap into heavens
with these lucky few, overseeing what is truly 'the big picture'.
But as blessed as I am, I am not one who can step that far outside my circumstance.
I struggle to lift each successive step as I move toward you.
You, dear, who are on the outside watching as I will me towards you.
At some strange turn, a thought occured to me and I paused,
taking a deep breath I turned away from you and threw a passing glance.
If I am going to make it outside, then I will face this puzzling thing
with a direct approach--because here, I think I now know
that to eventually get back to you, I have to start walking away.